No White Flags Here

So I listened to "White Flag" by Dido the other day and realized that it describes what is going on with me perfectly. And that is why it is on my new playlist for your listening enjoyment.

Hazy, misty, coming from within sensations do not lie! The body doesn't lie. So why the f does this hurt so much sometimes.. Like i said in earlier "I need a vacation from you. Wanna come?" Fucking drastic measures need to be taken.

Thank God that i am actually going on vacation ( and with someone else. someone platonic) bc if I was in New York on my week off I would probably so the same things that I do all the time.

It takes too much brain power and with all the thought I put into this-- I shouldn't even be writing this right now. I shouldn't be blasting this to society. I wish i could truly and honestly explain myself to ANYONE. Someone who won't judge but will have some sort of insight to what the fuck-- But I can't. To most people its childish.