Being in love with yourself and faith!

So I have been gong a little nuts lately. Yes I mean it. I have been having really high and really low thoughts lately. Like really low. grrr

A few things i have learned this weekend that I would like to share:

- Instead of being jealous because someone has something I want or is doing something that I want to do, I need to realize that it is not a threat but it should be an inspiration. Especially if I have known them. Its like if you can do it, then I can!!

- Vanity is ok. If it makes you happy and more comfortable with yourself then do it. Be in love with yourself!!!

- I am worth the money and a whole lot more.

- Faith. I finally know what the word means. After being in catholic schools since I was 4 years old until I graduated from college. I always passed over the word and didn't give it much thought. Now I realize that yes faith does exist and it is an essential part of creation. With out it you might just fucking die. Seriously. You know the whole "I think therefore I am" bit? It can be translated to "I have faith therefore I am"

Even though you have not seen tomorrow, you know its there. Even thought you do not see your house on the way home, you know its there. That is how people should view their biggest dreams. Its there just like everything you have already.

If you don't have something nice to say

don't say anything. I seriously just wanna hide my face right now.

For give me I'm having a moment. A long one.



(photo from lovehatethings.com)

Hmmmm

A little yelly and did i just see him rub a man's face in his crotch on the AMA's? God bless America!

Beauty

is defined by the mind and heart.

Reflections on This Time of the Month

I should be muzzled when i have my period. Do not take anything I say or d to offense. I am literally a rebel without a cause. Thank you for your time.

Epiphany on a Rainy Day

I want to speak to someone. Someone famous. Someone that has done something great.

I am not opposed to talking to someone who is my age doing what im doing or maybe more behind than me because I can learn something of value from any other human being. I want to talk to someone who is where they wanted to be all along. Who is living the dream. I want to ask them. Did you ever feel the way I am feeling right now? Stretched--ready to explode from whats going on inside--implode from whats going on outside--excited-- jealous--scared--in l0ve with so much and afraid to lose it before you even tried to get it?!

I know what i want to do. But how the hell am I going to pull all of this off? I feel like there is someone in the world resisting me, saying no before i even try. But i know that person is a version of me that i can erase. Its something that i can decide against. Maybe its like acting, all this training, thinking and in the end its all about forgetting it all and freeing yourself. The teachings become your body. You are not aware they are there but they are at all times moving you through your life and making you recognizable to people. It is your cells. It is your brain. It is everything correct or seemingly incorrect you can do.

I really wish i knew someone who was living the epitome of their dream right now. I really want to talk to someone.

I can't wait, I CAN'T WAIT, I CAN'T WAIT!!

I want to do so much and it scares me that i will just be ordinary. I will not settle. I never have. And i do not care if i am overwelhming to anyone. I have so much going on inside i cannot fathom being any other way right now.

No Doubt : Now Playing : No Doubt Acoustic! - Bridge School Benefit Video

No Doubt : Now Playing : No Doubt Acoustic! - Bridge School Benefit Video

Yay! From the Return of Saturn album, Love it!

Now this Would Be One for the Books

Two people feel the same thing at the same time for each other and they are not afraid to go for it.

We are the Light of the World

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is OUR LIGHT, not our darkness, that frightens us most. *We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your PLAYING SMALL DOES NOT SERVE THE WORLD. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And *WHEN WE LET OUR OWN LIGHT SHINE, WE UNCONSCIOUSLY GIVE OTHERS PERMISSION TO DO THE SAME. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

-Maryanne Williamson

This week has been a whirlwind of emotions/ confessions/ truth/ and beauty regardless of it being awkward. Its been tiring to say the least and tonight after my work holiday party i was feeling it. Sleepy, a bit dizzy-- just my energy was way off. I know when i am like that i tend to put things out there, vibes, etc that do not necessarily reflect how I actually feel. Well anyway, i couldn't figure out what was bothering me and what to do about it so i just took it easy. Took a nice slow walk to my bus not making any big decisions along the way.

So this quote at the top of this post is something my friend posted on facebook nearly a month ago. We commented on it here and there and of course i get the respective notifications. She decided to comment on it around 1130, the time i caught my bus. Since it was brought to my attention I reread the quote i feel better already. It just all snaps into place when i read this.

We choose where we are in life. We choose the fear or the love. The dark or the light. If we want to grow and become the phenomenal things we are meant to become we need the light, because, baby nothing can grow in the dark.